God Was Always With Me Through My Trial (Paul M., Auckland, New Zealand)

Until about four years ago, I was living in a country in Africa with my wife. We had gone there to set up a humanitarian project to help widows, orphans and children. We’d been married for a bit over 38 years at that time. The stress of setting up a project from scratch, put an awful strain on our marriage. I thought we had a good, strong marriage. I didn’t realize at the time that the strain was growing us apart. Nor did I realize...

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Helping God’s Sheep in Prison (Marty, Ohio, USA)

My name is Marty. I am a very grateful child of God and a recovering sexaholic/alcoholic, two things about myself that it took years and a fall from grace for me to accept. I am writing this from my kitchen and, as I look out the door, I do not see any razor-wire fences – a view I had for 25 years because of my abuse of prepubescent girls as a Catholic priest.  As I reflect I have an awareness that this is not my story but the story of...

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Essay in Africa (Kwaku O., Eastern Region, Ghana)

Ghana, Kenya, Botswana, South Africa, Zimbabwe, and Ivory Coast are the countries whose citizens have been participating in the Africa Sunday SA Zoom meeting every Sunday at 17:30 GMT. This is only one Zoom meeting out of many in the continent, and there are more countries with SA members in addition to those mentioned above. Addiction to lust knows no limits; it transcends language and nationality. I am so grateful for my 12-step program in...

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SA for the Essay (Anonymous)

I am a very grateful sexaholic and member of SA. My first experience of SA came in 2006, but unable to see the problem clearly, I left and did not return until 2012. I attended another S-fellowship for a time and saw a friend walking with someone I knew was an SA member. This prompted me to return to SA. I was reluctant at first, but a miracle happened and I surrendered: to life, to me, to my way of life and to SA. I was willing to do whatever...

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Essay Service (Lawrence M., USA)

Lust addiction and sexual acting-out brought me into SA, but it was the spirituality of the SA literature and deeper spiritual fellowship I found in SA meetings that called me to perform service in SA. With a background in writing and editing, I served on the SA Literature Committee that edited the White Book and Recovery Continues as well as other SA literature.  I became the Essay editor after Roy K. turned over administrative functions he...

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Please send letter to our friends in prison (Jim D., Wisconsin, USA)

Dear Essay, I am an incarcerated SA member due to my lust/pornography addiction. By the grace of God and SA I have been sober since Dec 11, 2019. I have been very blessed to remain in contact with my SA sponsor allowing me to complete the Steps and start working on the Traditions. I know many sexaholics in prison are not as blessed as I am. First of all,  I want to thank you so much for providing meetings in print via the Essay magazine which...

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