And then the global lockdown due to COVID hit. No football, no transfer news, no highlights, no interviews – nothing! Just rumours about if/when the season will restart.
From one day to the next the obsession went. It is like it was just taken from me (sound familiar?). For approx. 6 months, one day at a time, I have not been onto the BBC or Tottenham websites and I am not ‘desperate’ to either. It has freed up so much time and headspace and I am so grateful for it. It has also helped me in general escaping on the web to the news etc.
I share this since there are so many areas in my life which I wonder and worry how can it ever change. May it be finances, fears, relationships which need changing. You know what, G-d removed my obsession with lust and he just did it again with football. I have learnt that I can’t change things. I can pray and hope to do G-ds will. When the time comes G-d will remove it. I got to remember to keep out of G-ds way. Instead of worrying about situations and trying to control I got to do the best, for today, with a foundation of zero tolerance to lust. And I pray for guidance in all areas of my life to do his will.
And if you enjoy soccer or American football or indeed any sport I am not out to make you feel bad. On the contrary, if you can enjoy it in a healthy way that is good. I have learnt that there are things I can’t do in recovery that other recovering addicts can do. And vice versa. And I hope your team does really well.
Zalmi S. London UK.
So grateful to be Sober one day at a time through the grace of G-d since 5th November 2014